THOUGHTS

March 30, 2012

I don’t know where to start. All I want is to express myself through this note. I know physical appearance does not weigh when it comes to feelings for someone. But as time passes by I’m starting to be conscious about his physical appearance. It is not actually because of his size, but what his size can bring to us when we are adults (futuristic!). J . I may seem so rude when reminding him of his diet. 

This is my first relationship, and I want to experience a lot of things before I settle in one man. But this doesn’t mean I want to fling and flirt. All I want is to experience different things like going through a break up and what’s after it. And how will I know if he is or not the right one if I didn’t meet other men. J. I am not in rush. I just want to make sure that I will not fall for the wrong person like I did before. :/.

 Sweetness shouldn’t only be seen at the start of the relationship, but it is the one that should last till there is love. Where there is love, there is sweetness; where there is pain, there is bitterness. I thought he’ll be the one to break this saying “Ang lalaki, sa una lang sweet”, *LAUGH* Hell! He is that type of guy too. On our first year, he was consistent in giving me letters and texting me and calling me and putting those sweet comments on my Friendster and wait for 4 hours just to pick me up at school and go home together. And when we reached our second year, crap! He couldn’t wait one or two hours just for us to be together in going home. He missed texting me, he didn’t even call me not until I ask him. *NOT UNTIL I GET MAD*. After our first year, before he does my favor, I MUST get mad first. And I was like WOAAAAH. See that? :]. But I should come to realization that no man is perfect. One always lacks something (something that is important).  

Consistency is not when you failed once.  Love is the only consistent feeling, for me, in the world. You can be attracted to a fresh-looking-girl-due-to-make-up once you saw her, but when her make-up fades, you are not already. When you love, whatever the situation/looks/attitude/behavior is, you still love the person. Loving her every second is consistency, but loving her deeper and deeper is another story.

Trust: Years to earn, seconds to break. This is the second most important thing in any relationship I entered to (first is love). I don’t lie; I can’t keep my wrong doing to myself, I am good at confessing. When I confess I start with “****, may kasalanan ako sa’yo” or if I already know that I will do something bad to a person, I will say it before hand.  J. The guy that I love has all my trust and confidence that whatever he says, I believe at once. No doubts, no ifs. But sometimes, I make a trip on him. XD. He has all my trust and all my love, what more can he ask for? :]. I can leave him with his friends that have vices whether be it smoke or drink, ’cuz he does not  have any vices except for, ERIKA type of girl (if you know what I mean) and he can resist temptation. *HE CAN RESIST TEMPTATION* - FOOD is an exception. But seriously, once I found out that he is lying, Imma kill him.

Love changes everything.

-end

“It’s hard to be alone. Harder with asdjg* people.”

With my best-est budz! :)
Someone that I can rely on. HAHAHA! =D
I can tell almost everything to her.
My true-est friend! Someone that I can”t afford losing. :)


I looooooove her! :* 

MASAKIT

Ganon naman talaga e. Once you fall for someone at naging kayo ng matagal, aakalain mo na sya na. AKala ko, it won’t hurt much pag nag break kami. Akala ko, hindi sya susuko. Akala ko, mahal nya talaga ako. Akala ko, ipag lalaban nya pa rin ako kahit tinataboy ko na sya. Akala ko, matitiis nya lahat ng masasakit na sinabi ko sakanya. Akala ko, bakal sya. Akala ko, okay lang lahat ng ginawa ko sakanya. At lahat ng akala ko, mali. :/

Pero okay lang yan. Kaya pa. Humihinga pa.

When you know that you are being back stabbed, don’t turn around. 

CHOOSE TO BE THE PERSON YOU WANTED TO BE. :)

No one’s gonna help you but yourself. Wherever you are right now, it is YOUR CHOICE.